Inference

I have had a rather tumultuous five days. It started with a heated argument with one of my close friends who was leaving the city and the reaction of that was taken out on another close friend. The three of us are very close. We've known each other six years now and I wouldn't say it's a normal relationship we share. We all behave like we're romantically involved with each other so our problems sometimes take over our lives to an extent one can't imagine.
I keep wondering why it's like this. It's probably because we've lived and studied with each other for so many years that we became family at some point. I have come to realize that I (and they for that matter) behave like how a family does. In my case, I grew up in a family where we all took each other for granted to the point of no return. I grew up not being able to separate boundaries and sometimes even now, I have to watch very carefully where I tread lest I cram someones space. Which happens most of the time actually. The past four days have jolted me back to a reality which is unpleasant, unsettling and so harsh that I have to make an attempt to digest it.
What does it mean to co-exist in a space with someone who you're extremely close to? This is something I am trying to figure out for myself. It's important to separate myself from them as a being because our spaces and souls get intertwined sometimes and distinguishing between anything is practically impossible for me. I'm one of those extremely emotional people who swings often and extremely between two ends of any spectrum. Finding balance and peace within is a constant strive for as long as I can remember.
I think it's easier to achieve something within if you stop trying so hard to do exactly that. Dispersing some of that emotion and energy into something outside of me will probably help stabilize my state of being. This blog was also started with a similar thought.
I have now lost my chain of thought thanks to a friend of mine who lights up my life nowadays with his random and sometimes utter nonsensical talk. Anyway, more later.